So last night I realized why I hang out with a very particular type of girl.
Despite the fact that I firmly believe everyone deserves a chance to be respected and accepted, last night confirmed why I deliberately choose not to surround myself with bitchy girls. Ted and I hung out with his two friends Anna and Mary. They blasted techno music, bounced seductively on an exercise ball and made out for their digital camera. They proceeded to ask Ted "what he was thinking with me" and then they left without us to go to a party. They explained that fashion here is "soooo far behind the fashion in Sweeden" which is fine, whatever. Then she proceeded to tell me that she just "loved my jacket" with an obvious tone of condescending disgust. I felt like the nerd girl who is trying (and failing miserably) to hang out with the cool foreign girls. But oh well, I could probably make out with a girlfriend, jump around like a moron on a giant ball for attention, or listen to techno music (all characteristics which seem to make them believe they were inferior). However, i'm not a stuck-up bitch who deliberately tries to create awkward tension and make undeserving people feel like garbage. I don't think i've ever been in a sitatuion where i've felt so walked-over. And the worst part is, I have no desire to perpetuate conflict so I just let people say whatever they want.
I wish I could just get mad, tell people when they're being out of line. I don't understand people who are so unhappy that they insist on imposing their anger on other people. If I ever aquire the characteristics of a Starbucks customer, kill me. It must be hard to live the life of someone who is upset by anything or feels the need to belittle other people. Overall, i'd rather be the receiver of a venemous attack than someone who feels like they have to act that way in order to grafity themselves. Plus I hate sluts.
Needless to say, Ted isn't friends with them anymore.
Despite the fact that I firmly believe everyone deserves a chance to be respected and accepted, last night confirmed why I deliberately choose not to surround myself with bitchy girls. Ted and I hung out with his two friends Anna and Mary. They blasted techno music, bounced seductively on an exercise ball and made out for their digital camera. They proceeded to ask Ted "what he was thinking with me" and then they left without us to go to a party. They explained that fashion here is "soooo far behind the fashion in Sweeden" which is fine, whatever. Then she proceeded to tell me that she just "loved my jacket" with an obvious tone of condescending disgust. I felt like the nerd girl who is trying (and failing miserably) to hang out with the cool foreign girls. But oh well, I could probably make out with a girlfriend, jump around like a moron on a giant ball for attention, or listen to techno music (all characteristics which seem to make them believe they were inferior). However, i'm not a stuck-up bitch who deliberately tries to create awkward tension and make undeserving people feel like garbage. I don't think i've ever been in a sitatuion where i've felt so walked-over. And the worst part is, I have no desire to perpetuate conflict so I just let people say whatever they want.
I wish I could just get mad, tell people when they're being out of line. I don't understand people who are so unhappy that they insist on imposing their anger on other people. If I ever aquire the characteristics of a Starbucks customer, kill me. It must be hard to live the life of someone who is upset by anything or feels the need to belittle other people. Overall, i'd rather be the receiver of a venemous attack than someone who feels like they have to act that way in order to grafity themselves. Plus I hate sluts.
Needless to say, Ted isn't friends with them anymore.
6 Comments:
At 5:34 PM,
Anonymous said…
I'm a bitch. Sarah, you should see me when I'm a bouncer.
So when are you going to be in London?
I've got to book flights soon and I was thinking of maybe flying into London. And-and, are you going to be home at all this summer? I was thinking of coming home late August, but I'll only spend the money if there's peeps there to greet me.
someday we call on the telephone...
misses,
kisses,
Jillian
At 7:07 PM,
katherine said…
Sarah,
I'm glad that Ted won't be friends with them anymore. He sounds great.
Post pictures of him on the internet, cause the only one I've seen of him (on Nicole's msn space)looks kinda scary. But only kinda.
And, yea, when ARE you leaving? I need to plan trips home too.
Jillian - if you come home in August, maybe that's when I'll come home too. Or June. Whatevs.
love love love you
Katherine.
At 9:31 AM,
Saraiu01 said…
Jill!
My program starts July 11th. I can't remember if that is orientation or classes but either way, I should be there around them. I am still getting scared and up in the air and bla bla bla. heart attack! Let's set up a phone date. email me with some options and i'll respond promptly. I hope you're doing well, I miss you.
Kaffy, I'll post pics soon. My digital camera has been sitting on my shelf for weeks, I haven't been taking many pictures. I love you guuuuurrrrlllll. P.s. there is a good air guitar site I want to show you soon.
Paul, You're right, that story is only half true. I'm leaving out the part when they did a strip tease to Ja Rule in whip cream bikinis.
At 2:04 PM,
Anonymous said…
Bear,
I'm taking language from beginning of June to mid July. I've got the apartment till the end of July. We're planning on traveling before school, and, after. Are you coming before July 11th? Too bad I'll be studying then. You could come visit me in Germany. Or, if not and more likely, we could come see you after,though hopefully you won't be too busy/ tied up with starting school then. Maybe you have a break in there? Ideally we would both find a time to travel around together for a bit. Maybe go visit sissy in Scotland, or just go anywhere we like. Being nervous sucks because it is a waste of nerves. I'd say don't be nervous, but I know easier said than done. Anyways, telephone date. I'm going to be home mostly all night (from 8 or so on). You can call me, or maybe I'll try and call you, though my call card only has half of an hour left. If not tonight, the same goes with Thursday. Now I'm gonna email Kathy and tell her the same.
Hey, do you realize how awsome it is that I won't have seen you for months and then I'll meet up with you somewhere in Europe to play and travel and make trouble? So exciting! Where do you want to go with me. Spain? Italy? France? Belgium? oooh ooh aah aah. I wish I weren't so busy so I had time to truly get excited.
Talk soon xoxxxabc
Jillian
At 10:35 AM,
Saraiu01 said…
JJJIIILLLLIIIIANNNNTTEEEEE! Stop playing hard to get you bitch. i want you want you to call call me. if I was a normal person, i would get long distance. but I don't have it! Visit me in the UK (if i go). i don't plan on being there too far before the 11th. i don't know. I am so scared and weird right now. Do you still have relatives in Belgium? Hm....
At 2:38 PM,
Anonymous said…
Sorry. Was going to call last night but then my mama called, and actually talked to me for more than ten minutes- something that never happens. Son troubles. Anyways, Thursday night for real. I'll be home. I'll be depressed by papers. I've only got half an hour on that card though, and I'm trying to hook it up with Kathy, too, so we'll all have to be a bit quick (unless I get to a phone card tomorrow...unlikely story). What do you mean if? No if! Yeah, I got fam in Belgium still. You remember Nele, right? You and she can make friends. Tracy'll be in Scotland next year, too, so if you get lonely/ ancy you could go visit her. I am definitely gonna visit the Belgium fam this summer. Anyways, rather than writing a book here, we talk tomorrow.
with love,
Jillian Marie
ps- and I'll try and think of books, though I haven't been reading literature. Um, how about Hume's Dialogues? :(
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