They follow each other....one after another after another.....
So yeah.
I am feeling a little down and could use some words of encouragement. Whether it be via e-mail or msn or even on this silly thing (telephones are so 2004) I would love to hear from people. Friday was a nice night: jug pee, old friends, new friends, good wine. Today I am not feeling well. I seem to have met my physical demise in the form of an intense flu which caused me to pull a muscle in my stomach and burst a blood vessel in my eye. Why is it that when my emotional state is threatened my physical health plummets without resistance? I seem to have absolutely no immune system these days and my body is plagued with constant ailment in one form or another. I have come to the conclusion that I will have severe issues with aging. I already worry about things like wrinkles and alzheimers. If I could somehow substitute my hypochodria with something else I would be all set. Maybe i'll become one of those people who drinks green tea and buys Lulu Lemon (Kristina?) and aleviates pain/problems through herbs and thinking about nature and stuff. Maybe I should join a dance troop or pilates......or the Red Hat's Society!
I wish that I could tie a potatoe gun (or maybe a pellet gun) to a lying person's foot and everytime they told a lie they would get shot with a potatoe or a pellet or maybe even a paintball. I think i've arrived at teh conclusion that lying is the absolute worst thing that you can do to a person. It erases all forms of trust and understanding and just hangs overhead like a fog that just won't clear up. I have always had severe difficulty trusting people which is something i'll have to deal with. Why let someone be a fool unknowingly? What's the fucking point in keeping someone around when are unconsciously subjected to being used and abused?
I hate bringing this shit to the forefront of my life (blogs are supossed to be wholly superficial unless you're under 19 or play in an emotional acoustic guitar coffee house or something). But sometimes ambigious ranting is the key element in releasing anxiety and hurt.
So yeah.
I am feeling a little down and could use some words of encouragement. Whether it be via e-mail or msn or even on this silly thing (telephones are so 2004) I would love to hear from people. Friday was a nice night: jug pee, old friends, new friends, good wine. Today I am not feeling well. I seem to have met my physical demise in the form of an intense flu which caused me to pull a muscle in my stomach and burst a blood vessel in my eye. Why is it that when my emotional state is threatened my physical health plummets without resistance? I seem to have absolutely no immune system these days and my body is plagued with constant ailment in one form or another. I have come to the conclusion that I will have severe issues with aging. I already worry about things like wrinkles and alzheimers. If I could somehow substitute my hypochodria with something else I would be all set. Maybe i'll become one of those people who drinks green tea and buys Lulu Lemon (Kristina?) and aleviates pain/problems through herbs and thinking about nature and stuff. Maybe I should join a dance troop or pilates......or the Red Hat's Society!
I wish that I could tie a potatoe gun (or maybe a pellet gun) to a lying person's foot and everytime they told a lie they would get shot with a potatoe or a pellet or maybe even a paintball. I think i've arrived at teh conclusion that lying is the absolute worst thing that you can do to a person. It erases all forms of trust and understanding and just hangs overhead like a fog that just won't clear up. I have always had severe difficulty trusting people which is something i'll have to deal with. Why let someone be a fool unknowingly? What's the fucking point in keeping someone around when are unconsciously subjected to being used and abused?
I hate bringing this shit to the forefront of my life (blogs are supossed to be wholly superficial unless you're under 19 or play in an emotional acoustic guitar coffee house or something). But sometimes ambigious ranting is the key element in releasing anxiety and hurt.
5 Comments:
At 3:46 PM,
Anonymous said…
amen, for real.
At 4:08 PM,
Saraiu01 said…
you knows it guuurlll. call me!
At 10:19 AM,
Big Nikki said…
sarah who lied to you?!
obviously you are not going to state this on the blog, but you know...i wish that we could have more time to hang out before you leave...but here are the words of encouragement: you are an awesome person and you are going to meet all kinds of people and do all kinds of amazing things and you have SO MUCH to look forward to!!!
not to mention before you leave you will have an awesome joint party to look forward to!!! don't forget, this saturday. but it would be nice to do something that is specifically for JUST you before you go, we'll talk.
LYLAS (for real)
~nikki
At 7:23 AM,
Saraiu01 said…
Aww, thanks nicole! your message meant a lot. it's kind of a general rant which verbalizes a lot of things i've always thought about. more of a rant which was influenced by stress and miscommunication! no biggie. Hey, is the party on sat? call me, we can hang out before i go! Also, I have ALL of next week off (from oct 1-6)!
At 4:16 PM,
Anonymous said…
yah i know what you mean (about ranting) and i am glad that message meant SOMETHING! i know its cheesey but i think it was what you wanted ha ha. yes the party is sat and i will call you sometime to hang out in the next week...i am going to be really busy, guess where my placement is? dartmouth high!! crazy...anyway i will call call call you.
~N
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